So I've been very depressed lately and it seems like everything keeps getting worse. I'm not allowed to be sad at home so I always wear a fake smile. I'm not aaccepted by my family and no one really talks to me anymore. I have maybe 2 friends that actually still talk to me. I've had more and more doctors appointments now and I always stress over those. I actually have one tomorrow. Plus this whole starting college thing is killing me. I don't know what to do. I'm so stressed out and lonely that I can't take it.Im sorry for this little rant. I know I should be happy cause I have so much to be happy for, but I'm not. No one understands. I don'
Wow. I can't believe I actually graduated yesterday! It doesn't feel normal. I don't know what to do. It's so different now. I've been putting out job applications and I'm starting to get my life turned around. I know everyone says "I can't wait to get out of school and I'm never looking back." Well I said that every day and I want to go back already. The thing that I'm gonna miss most is band! When I heard my band kids playing at graduation and I wasn't playing with them it tore me up. I don't want to leave them. There my family! It's gonna drive me insane! This is so crazy! I've got so much to do before college and I don't know where to